8 02 2009

My goal was to make this into a food/fitness blog with some weight loss talk in there. But there are so many “wellness” topics that I am interested in (fitness, nutrition, veganism, busting stereotypes, body positivity, etc.) that I didn’t know how to combine them all in one, so I had a vegan food blog and this. I have decided to combine forces and start all over with a new blog.

be well & take care is where you can find me now. See you on the other side!


keep moving.

18 01 2009

So, things are moving slowly but surely. I am at the gym 3-4 times a week and I am eating clean. I did eat a bit too much sugar yesterday but I’ll let it slide. Let me just say that my body does NOT like sugar so I know that I just need to avoid it.

I’ve lost 4lbs this month which is great. I am feeling muscles I never knew I had, I am sleeping better and I have felt less stressed.

I have been a bad blogger due to work and school, but I really want to start using this blog as part of my journey. I’ll try to not forget about this. WordPress for the iPhone is pretty nice, I must say.

the number game.

4 01 2009

There’s a message board that I frequent that has a “super secret weight loss forum” where we discuss openly our goals regarding weight loss, our fitness techniques, our healthy recipes, etc. I really like this forum because I am surrounded by like-minded people who are striving to be healthy. What I don’t like, however, is that 85% of these people are marginally thinner than myself and are complaining about wanting to lose 5, 10, 15 pounds. People keep saying, “I need to lose 15 pounds by April 1st!” or “I feel so fat and disgusting because I gained 20 pounds over the span of two years and I hate myself” and hey, I get that. I totally do. I gained about 35 pounds in 3 years and I am not happy about it. I feel sluggish and fatigued and I can’t run up stairs the way I used to without getting slightly winded. I notice that my clothes feel different, I am constantly pulling my shirt down or thinking of the best way to stand in a picture to make myself look less fat. But does that mean I think I am disgusting? No. Am I sometimes unhappy with the way I look? Yes. Do I hate my body? No, not in the slightest.

My body is strong. My legs carry me places – on long walks and on bike rides. They allow me to run around with my little cousins and to chase my neighbor’s dog. I love my arms – I can pick up two 6-year old’s, carry in all my gigantic bags of groceries, help my father move heavy objects, etc. My core is what I would like to work on, but my core is helping me keep my posture straight. Sure, I have fat rolls and stretch markets and some jiggle where I don’t want it, but I can’t hate my body — I simply will not allow myself to think negative thoughts about my body.

This leads me to think about numbers: why do we have to put our goals in this arbitrary numerical system? I want to lose __ pounds, I need to lose ___ inches, I want to fit into size __ jeans, I will eat ___ calories today, I will burn ___ calories working out. I mean hey, I get it. I like to set goals and I think it’s good to work toward something. But I think so many people take it too far. If they don’t meet their goal, they beat themselves up. What happened to just aiming to feel healthier, stronger, etc? I will be the first to admit that I check the scale obsessively and think about what I will look like when I am at my goal weight, but I also know that I get pretty obsessive when it comes to how many pounds and calories and so on.

So, for now, I want to focus on the following things: feeling better and more secure in my own skin, getting stronger, sleeping better, eating more whole foods (and less sugar). I am doing 30 Day Shred, lots of walking, pilates and yoga, elliptical and stair climber. I am eating whole grains (quinoa, brown rice, millet, bulgur wheat) and fresh veggies and snacking on fruit and raw nuts. I am going to allow myself that piece of chocolate. I am drinking water and quitting diet soda, replacing it with seltzer water and pure pomegranate juice. I am trying to not focus on the fact that the scale isn’t budging and my jeans aren’t getting smaller.

Because guess what? I feel better. I am fueling my body with quality food and I am moving my body and constantly challenging it. I am less stressed and less anxious. Why would I want to work myself up all over again because of a number? Right now, I want to focus on health. And that is exactly what I’m going to do.

I wish you would try it, too.

allow me to vent.

3 01 2009
  • You are not a vegetarian if you eat fish. Sure, you may be a pescetarian, but please stop calling yourself a vegetarian. When you are a vegetarian who eats fish, it makes people who know nothing about vegetarianism think that all of us eat fish. Please don’t think this is a holier than thou attitude – it’s not. If there’s any “meat” I don’t have much of a problem with people eating, it’s things from the sea. Sure, I still think it’s cruel and I also think that some oceans are pretty dirty, I think that fish has more supposed health benefits than say, oh, red meat. But really, if one more person says “Oh, she’s a vegetarian, but she can have fish!” then I’m going to scream. What don’t you understand? I eat nothing that comes from an animal! Thank you for trying, I do appreciate it, but just give me some raw veggies and move on.
  • People who assume that fat people don’t know what they are doing at the gym. People who assume that fat people at the gym are there to lose weight. People who stare at fat people in the gym, period. Hey, maybe I would like to lose a few pounds, but that’s my choice. Just because I am fat and getting into fitness to tone up does not mean that the fat girl next to me on the treadmill wants to look like you, Fitness Barbie. Please stop talking to us like we are below you. Some people exercise because they enjoy it — whether it is for the mental health benefits, whether they just want to get their heart rate up or because they like walking.
  • People who assume that all fat people have “poor” eating habits. I know that I may be overanalyzing this sometimes, but whenever I am out to eat with someone marginally smaller than me and I order the supposed “healthier” item and they order something fattening/fried/etc., the server always gives me the fattening one and my friend the healthy one. Last week, I was served a loaded baked potato and chicken tenders while my friend received the veggie burger patty and soup.  She weighs 135 pounds, I weigh twice that amount — so of course I am going to be eating the crap, huh?

Phew, okay, that felt good.

let’s shred: day 1.

1 01 2009

I don’t know what I am getting myself into, but today I started Day 1 of Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I watched it first to get myself familiar with the moves and really thought it would be a piece of cake, but boy was I wrong. After the 20-something minutes (it says 20 but it’s really like 25) of the various intervals, I was somewhat sore!

Jillian does the 3/2/1 method, which is 3 minutes of strength training, 2 minutes of cardio and 1 minute of abs. Rinse and repeat. There are 3 different levels, 1 being for the beginner and 3 being for the more advanced. You start with 1 and work your way up to 3. I suppose that once you feel you can do it all, you could do all 3 intervals at once for an hour (or more) of an ass kicking workout, but that seems almost like torture.

I’ve taken my measurements and I’m ready to check my results after I’ve done 30 days. Day 1 done, 29 more to go.


30 12 2008

1. I’m doing the Body + Soul 35 day challenge, which is essentially a detox for your life. I am stressed, exhausted, eating crappy and not working out as hard as I should, so I figured this could kick my ass into gear. I am going to start next week because it’s leftover central at my place, and I don’t want to feel guilty if I have a pumpkin muffin or a handful of nuts. I eat pretty clean as it is, with a few “bad” foods here and there. So yeah, I’ll start documenting all that here.

2. I’ve been listening to Jillian Michaels podcasts lately which she does for a local station in CA. If you click here and search for Jillian Michaels, you can download all of her past episodes. These are especially great to listen to at the gym. She’s pretty much my hero.

3. Lentils are the best food ever. Lentil soup, red lentil dal, Snobby Joes from Veganomicon, etc. French lentils and red lentils are my favorite. Filling, fiber, low fat, protein – what else can a girl ask for? This French Lentil and Portabello stew from FatFree Vegan Kitchen is especially delicious.

4. Bread is my downfall so I switched to Ezekiel Bread a few months ago. Since sprouted grain bread is so expensive ($4-$5 per loaf), I started watching my intake. I also started eating oatmeal instead of toast with peanut butter for breakfast, so that helped me cut back. However, I am trying to eat healthy on a budget, so I’ve been slowy cutting back. But then I found Arnold Double Fiber bread, which has contains 90 calories, 1.5 g fat, 4g fiber and 4g of protein per slice. No HFCS or partially hydrogenated oils, and it’s vegan! Hooray. Clocking in at less than $2/loaf, this is a bread I can deal with.

5. I’m going to try the Couch to 5K again. I know that my joints are really not in the best shape ever for running, but I still want to give it a shot. Bad knees run in the family but damnit, I don’t know if I can’t run because I’m fat and I just need to push myself, or if I can’t run because bad knees run in the family and I’m doomed. It’s worth trying, right?


25 11 2008

let’s start this all over again, shall we?